dancingcanvas: First Official Date

Darren and I went for our FIRST official date today (:

It was nice having to hold Darren's hands and not be worried if someone sees us.

It was nice having to look at someone in the eye and know that nothing else matters

It was nice to not sneak around in a relationship, for the first time.

I've been involved in a couple of relationships in the past but they were all indeed very sneaky, very cautious, very tiring... Given the reason that I started dating from a young age, many of my relationships in the past were always under the radar and they all ended in tears; As I begin to realize that life does not have to revolve around relationships, or being showered with love and gifts, I made a promise myself to never fall in love after my last breakup at the age of 13.

It's been five years now since I had a relationship, although I won't deny that throughout the last couple of years was tough.. whenever I begin to develop the slightest feelings for someone, I pull back and clarify to both myself and the other party that we will only be friends, and nothing more... Since migrating to Australia, I've developed a "I'm NEVER going to date" mentality, and thanks to that I've pulled myself out of alot of unneccessary trouble and heartaches..

Darren's different though.. Truly one of a kind (: We've known each other for three years now.. and from being his "lending-shoulder-to-cry-on" buddy, listening to his girl problems back in year 10, we've somehow developed feelings for one another.. It was never serious between us as I kept reminding him that we are JUST friends and we will always be JUST friends.

Year 10, Year 11, and Year 12 went by, from "I will defend you from that stupid girl" friend, to becoming the best of friends, and today... we're dating. (: I've had a wonderful journey with this guy, and I'm glad he's have never given up on us, hence I will never give up on us too.