Dear Diary,

Does anyone remember my "Dear Diary" posts?

I love typing up my "Dear Diary" posts every once in awhile, it's umm... very therapeutic... and reflective... and just nice to actually mute my music for a change. It's nice staying up late at night not stressing over exams, or the lack of preparation for our upcoming exam.. or how my life will turn out after leaving high school, stuff like that. It's definitely nice for a change.

Now that I have everything over and done with I can somewhat chillax to reflect on everything that has happened over the past couple of weeks...

Last couple of weeks felt like imprisonment and isolation, despite having loving friends just a phone call away... My perception of life was just gradually becoming more distorted each day... Each day I would see myself completing the exams with confidence, be swept into a variety of adventures that I never thought I 'd experience, and to just enjoy the company of my friends.. Each day I would sink deeper into my perception of reality, only to find out that it was all... a dream.. and throughout the day I would be in bed when I was clearly meant to be stapled onto the chair revising for exams... Each day.. I'd wake up and feel so terrible about not accomplishing anything, and escaping further away from reality to call a friend and everything would feel normal again. Each day, I could see a change in me, the person who I was and the person who I was becoming disgusted me.. But easier said than done, It was tough standing back up from the pit...

I just felt really shit.

"Darren, Help me motivate myself... Tell me how do you get motivated?"

"My father had really good results when he was my age, I know I can't be as good as him, but I want to show him that I can"

"That's awesome Darren"

"You know how both your parents did not graduate from High School, you could be the first to get into University, How about that?"

(:

I love my family, friends, and most importantly my teachers.

iBlog

Conversation at 4:30am.

Sherry "I'm so tired.. Gotta get this done"

Darren "Take some rest, The work won't go away"

Sherry "...... but time will"

iBlog

Ola!

Haven't posted up a proper blogpost in awhile... School's been pretty hectic over the past couple of days, both Viscom and Studio Art folios are handed in this month! More Practice SACS and Exams handed to us... I guess.. this is where everyone begins to step up their game. Above's a pretty pretty photo of me, lol yes.. I'm admitting that I've chosen the prettiest photo to post up. lol. It's been awhile since I camwhored.. It's time like these... when someone's in a middle of work, and the laptop's just right beside them.. instead of chatting on facebook/msn (seeing as I'm currently on a facebook/msn fast) the next entertaining activity, was to camwhore on webcam! LOL. admiring my... ability to manipulate. lolololollerskate. Bleh.

Today's been awesome! I love my classes with ze kids! When amazing (me) and amazing (children) comes together, something AMAZING happens!

In the next couple of days, workload will bound to increase... more seminars will be on in Universities.. and I am expected to attend... given that the future's currently a blurr.. and at this point of time in life... I'm really unsure of the future. Good or Bad. I'm taking any opportunity that lies ahead...

Hopefully you're all regularly visiting my new DANCINGCANVASSTUDIO blog. Every week, me and the students will come up with amazing artworks, as well as to inspire and teach the little ones to draw, to create, to dream .......and to clean up! ;)

iBlog

FYI I was so not pretending to be on the phone; I actually was. :)

So Viscom SAC turned out to be... not today. :) but Studio SAC is definately going ahead tomorrow. Studying takes up most of my time nowadays... I wish I had something awesome foursome to blog about, but the truth is... life's just the way it is. Within the last couple of days, I've been working on the jumper designs and votes, studying, keeping myself occupied with school, my "unofficial" job, art and visual communication folios...

Speaking of my "unofficial" job... I've got an announcement to share! :)

I'm currently teaching every Saturday from 10.00am-11.30am and 1.00pm-2.30pm everyone! It's nothing big, nothing major.. Highly doubt I'd have the capability of teaching a large group of students.. Hence this is merely a small private artclass, and I'll be teaching students from the age of 7-12... It's an art&craft class.. with a collaboration of both, guiding and inspiring the younger generation of what it's like to be creative, be challeged in approaching different crafty activities, viewing the ordinary in a different perspective.. theres so so much more I've got to offer! :)

Well that's a short short introduction of my Dancingcanvas Studio artclass.

Keep a watch out for more art and craft by little Picassos on http://www.dancingcanvasstudio.blogspot.com/

I'll be updating the blog on a weekly basis, art completed by me and the students.. will be lots of fun! sooo keep a watch out on Dancingcanvas Studio. (link on the right side of this blog) This is an awesome priviledge to inspire, and it'll be amazing if you could show your support by regularly visiting my page! (:

Thanks!

iBlog

Here's a brand new label for my blog! iBlog.

My friend and I has always loved to rephrase the word i in iPhone or iTouch or iPod into words that occur in our everday lives... iStalk, iLove, iLaugh, iPoop. lol. (made the last one up!) Well I've decided to label this post as iBlog. iBlog will be filled with camwhore photos of me taken at 2am at night, more of a diary post, a reflective piece, or just to blabber on and on and on... (: random blabbers to keep readers entertained!

As for today... Here is.. an interesting fact.. as some of my close buddies might already know... it's sometimes high-larious to put it outthere.. flaws and what not.

I have a lazy eye! (: I've previously posted up a couple of posts about my lazy eye ages ago, and if I do say so myself, this lazy right eye of mine is rather extraordinary... (: You often wouldn't come across any photoes of me with my lazy eye... only because.. with the help of contact lens to keep em both functioning normally. (: Hence in the two photos above.. ones with and the other is without glasses... as soon as I take my glasses off.. it's as though this right eye of mine goes travelling elsewhere and never comes back in focus again.. whereas all my attention would directly be readjusted and purely focusing on my left eye?... YAH-MAN. I'm THAT special. :D

There's nothing much happening within the last couple of days... studying at the library, stress fracture in my lower back, major tummy aches.. Honestly, today's been an utterly unproductive day... I woke up with a sore back, had period cramps this morning... major bad tummy ache yesterday.. All I was capable of doing was.. working on my english oral presentation.. standing, sitting, lying on my bed, everything that i did... was soo (mind my language) frigging painful.. all I felt like doing was.. sleeping and praying that this pain would just go away... as soon as possible!

Which it has... :) Now feeling heaps better... Here I am... blogging about how unproductive the day has been.. This blog is definately iBlog worthy. ! Another two more days before the school reopens, two more days to catch up on my homework, SAC preparation, and ACE-ing my Studio Art SAC! lol. Given that I haven't started my preparation.. these two days would be ultimate fun fun fun to get everything done, + my stress fracture back.

I'm in pain. So much work to do. No time to waste. No time to lose. Back still aching. What to do? What not to do?

Quote of the day everyone. A beautiful quote if reflected upon everyone.

How beautiful will ze world be?

“Life without love is like a tree without blossoms or fruit"